Assalamualaikum. I have once came across some good words on Tumblr, which sound like this:
"You thought the storm, the ocean, the fear, the sadness, the mistakes, the loss, the brokenness was all bad for you. But really it was only a means. It was all a vehicle to make you seek Him. To bring you back. To bring you back to completion, to happiness, to life. To bring you back to where you began. To bring you back to all that you really seek. To bring you back to Him." [Yasmin Mogahed]
"There are times when everyone experiences heartbreak. It could be the betrayal of your spouse, a friend that hurts your feelings or a family member that cuts ties with you. It’s crucial to be strong through this difficult test and realize that there is wisdom that you can learn in the process.
Each time your heart breaks you become less attached to others which leads you to search for comfort in your creator. See this hurt as a reminder that no one cares for you the way your creator does and as long as you have Him you are NEVER ALONE!" [Halel Banani (via islamicrays)]
Rather than letting Tumblr steals my time for nothing, I follow some religious blogs so that my home will be filled with endless reminders and so that my time will not go to waste. Alhamdulillah some posts are really good that I feel consoled while scrolling beautiful reminders thus preventing me from going astray if I'm emotional or having a storm of endless bad thoughts.
Well, we all need reminders (:
I think 2015 has been beautiful (please count how many times I have used this word) despite I have received quite a few numbers of sad news. My cousin passed away in May due to cancer, a second degree cousin passed away last month due to cancer, my grandfather just passed away last Sunday (8/11/15) due to pulmonary embolism, and my life is a bit in chaos because I failed few exams in my previous semester 4. Alhamdulillah I am now in my semester 5 with one paper left to be passed which I will sit for in January 2016 before I am eligible to proceed to semester 6 which is a clinical semester. I appreciate all prayers that my beloved family and friends have gave me and I honestly feel that I will not come this far if not because of those kind prayers, so really, I thank all of you and will always be thankful for your support.
And I need more prayers, firmer motivation and determination because my final examinations for this semester is approaching fast. InsyaAllah I will sit my final from 7 until 12 December 2015, carrying one module to next semester because we are not allowed to sit for the paper this semester. Apart from that I really need to pass that one more supplemental examination so guys, please pray for me.
Life has been tough for me, but I will consider it beautiful still, because I am alive and healthy.
May Allah help me to go through these tests well and successfully,
and may He help me to always see things from the brighter side.
And dear myself,
NO MATTER HOW UNFORTUNATE YOU THINK YOU ARE,
PLEASE REALIZE AND ALWAYS REMEMBER TO BE THANKFUL TO GOD OF HOW FORTUNATE YOU ACTUALLY ARE.
Allahumma rabbi yassir, wala tu'assir, rabbi tammim bilkhair, amin.
I will try to set no boundaries for patience and happiness, because this life that Allah lends me is only once. It is also only once that I have attempt to prepare for my life in the HereAfter. Wishing everyone a good life and may we will always be on His right path, may the path we tread is the path that seeks His Jannah, amin.